“D\u00fczenim bozulur, hayat\u0131m alt \u00fcst olur diye endi\u015fe etme\u2026 Nereden biliyorsun hayat\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnden daha iyi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131?” demi\u015f \u015eems-i Tebr\u00eez\u00ee Ben de bilmiyordum o kap\u0131dan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hayat\u0131m\u0131n alt \u00fcst olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Ben de bilmiyordum bundan sonraki hayat\u0131mda ‘Katil’ diye an\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m\u0131. Ben de bilmiyordum yeni bir hayata al\u0131\u015fmak zorunda kalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131. Sevdi\u011fim adam\u0131 korumak i\u00e7in vermi\u015f oldu\u011fum karar\u0131n hayat\u0131m\u0131 yok edece\u011fini. \u015eik\u00e2yet edip her g\u00fcn s\u0131zland\u0131\u011f\u0131m hayat\u0131m\u0131 bu kadar \u00e7ok \u00f6zleyece\u011fimi. Ka\u00e7man\u0131n, hayat\u0131m\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordum mesela ya da saklanmak zorunda olman\u0131n. Elime tutu\u015fturulan yeni hayat\u0131m\u0131n beni nerelere s\u00fcr\u00fckleyece\u011fini\u2026 Asla yapmam dedi\u011fim \u015feylerle s\u0131nanaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131\u2026 Yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir hatan\u0131n cezas\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyunca \u00e7ekmek zorunda kalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 da bilmiyordum mesela. As\u0131l mesele, hayat\u0131n bize neler getirece\u011fini bilmemek de\u011fil mi zaten? Peki, s\u0131zland\u0131\u011f\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131n geri d\u00f6n\u00fclemez bir par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmek neler kazand\u0131r\u0131r insana? \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck gibi; korkmadan, saklanmadan ya\u015famak gibi. Geri gelir mi avucumuzdan u\u00e7up giden hayat? Karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalman\u0131n bedeli nedir mesela? Beyaz bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da ak\u0131t\u0131lan siyah m\u00fcrekkebin geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yok mudur ger\u00e7ekten? \u00dczerinde gezdirdi\u011fin beyaz boyan\u0131n izi kalmaz m\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tta? Peki, benim hayat\u0131m\u0131n geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc? Geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yok mu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclen D\u00fcnya’ya ula\u015fman\u0131n? \u0130llaki Ate\u015fler i\u00e7inde yan\u0131p k\u00fcl m\u00fc olmal\u0131? *** Her g\u00fcn g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in can att\u0131\u011f\u0131, gizliden gizliye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131, i\u00e7inde onunla birlikte oldu\u011fu binlerce hayaller kurdu\u011fu adam\u0131n; g\u00f6zleri \u00f6n\u00fcnde \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclmesine izin vermedi D\u00fcnya. Ama bilmiyordu ki sevdi\u011fi adam\u0131n can\u0131n\u0131 korumak i\u00e7in verdi\u011fi bu karar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden kendi hayat\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7mek zorunda olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Bilmiyordu; hayat\u0131n\u0131n, sevdi\u011fi adam\u0131n Ate\u015f\u2019i ile yan\u0131p k\u00fcl olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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