\u00b7 AYRA\u00c7 \u015e\u0130ZOFREN A\u015eKA MEKTUP Bir \u015fizofrendim art\u0131k… Yalanlar s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordum, hem sana hem de ona… Kendimi tan\u0131yamaz olmu\u015ftum. Hangisi bendim? \u0130\u00e7imdeki, o g\u00fczelli\u011fiyle d\u00fcnyay\u0131 elde etmeye k\u0131\u015fk\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, karanl\u0131k ve ilgi tutsa\u011f\u0131 kad\u0131n m\u0131yd\u0131m; yoksa u\u011fruna hayat\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7meye haz\u0131r oldu\u011fu a\u015fk\u0131na mahkum, ezilmi\u015f, kap\u0131larda b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, verdi\u011fi g\u00fcven ve ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 masumiyetle sana cazip gelmeyen o sevdal\u0131 kad\u0131n m\u0131? \u0130kisi de olmak istemiyordum. Ama ikisinden de vazge\u00e7emiyordum. Sanki biri olmazsa di\u011feri y\u0131k\u0131lacak gibiydi. Birbirinden nefret eden ve birbirinin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na tahamm\u00fcl edemeyen bu iki benlikle yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131racak gibi oluyor, a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r ruhumu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcyordum. Art\u0131k yaln\u0131z kalmak dayan\u0131lmaz olmu\u015ftu benim i\u00e7in. Seni g\u00f6remedi\u011fim zamanlar ona gidiyor, onu g\u00f6remedi\u011fim zamanlar sana s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131yordum. \u0130\u00e7imdeki bu birbirine ayk\u0131r\u0131 iki kad\u0131n beni durmadan diplere \u00e7ekiyordu… \u015e\u0130ZOFREN A\u015eKIN G\u00dcNL\u00dcKLER\u0130 Ne ac\u0131mas\u0131z ne bencilim de\u011fil mi? Sana sahip olmak u\u011fruna Belki de t\u00fcketmek p\u0131narlar\u0131n\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m Bilmesem nas\u0131l bir y\u00fcre\u011fin oldu\u011funu Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmem Ge\u00e7irirdim pen\u00e7elerimi en derin yaralar\u0131na Ama \u00f6yle g\u00fczel, \u00f6yle \u00e7ocuk ki y\u00fcre\u011fin Seni sana b\u0131rakmamak olacak en b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00fcnah Ve biz Yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f hik\u00e2yeleriyiz seninle T\u00fcm vedalar\u0131n ad\u0131yla. Bir kad\u0131n ve bir erkek… Bir k\u0131\u015f gecesinde, kaderlerinin y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesinden d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi\u011fi B\u00fcy\u00fckada\u2019daki otelin farkl\u0131 odalar\u0131nda ya\u011fmurun sesini dinlemektedirler. Kad\u0131n tutkulu, \u015fefkatli ve hassast\u0131r. Erkek bencildir, haindir. O g\u00fczel kad\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde \u00e7ok k\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, bilir kendi kabahatlerini… Camlar\u0131n zang\u0131r zang\u0131r titredi\u011fi bu f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 gece, belki de erke\u011fin son \u015fans\u0131 olacakt\u0131r. \u0130yi bilir a\u015fk\u0131n adaletsizli\u011fini. \u201cYa\u015fanan hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin kaybolmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ne ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fsa bir yerde sakl\u0131 durdu\u011funu, bir g\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bundan ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131…\u201d Adal\u0131 Mikail\u2019in Kahvesi\u2019nde oturmu\u015f, \u201cHerkes kendisini aldatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar su\u00e7lu!\u201d diye kendi kendine m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131rken, \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7er ve sadece bekler!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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