R\u00fcyalar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kayg\u0131l\u0131 hakikati, uyan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kurnazca savu\u015fturulan sorgular\u0131n\u0131 birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn daha s\u00fcrd\u00fcrebilirim. Yaln\u0131z ge\u00e7enlerde anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ge\u00e7mi\u015f hareketleri, belirsiz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flerin can \u00e7eki\u015fti\u011fi sanc\u0131l\u0131 zamanlar yarat\u0131yor. Koltu\u011fumun bedenime bir veryans\u0131n olarak diretti\u011fi rahats\u0131zl\u0131k, sanki ayakta olman\u0131n gereklili\u011fini hayk\u0131rmak istiyor. Ben oturduk\u00e7a nefes al\u0131yorum. Bunu bilsin onlar. Bana girdi\u011fim kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, y\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm suyun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m kalemin rengini soranlara g\u00fclmekten ba\u015fka ne gelir elden. Satmak i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u015feyim vard\u0131 eskiden, ancak hangi ahmakl\u0131k bana acizli\u011fi mecbur k\u0131labilir yeniden. G\u00f6m\u00fclmemi\u015f olmak ya\u015famaya dair bir kan\u0131t m\u0131d\u0131r? Bir \u00e7ift g\u00f6z fazladan g\u00f6recek diye, kefen a\u00e7mak cesaret i\u015fi midir? Hay\u0131r, hay\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa yorulan kapal\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7\u0131yorum. Bakmak i\u00e7in g\u00f6sterdi\u011fim \u00e7aba de\u011fil, onlarda eksik kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 yaratmak istiyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben, \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bozulmam\u0131\u015f bedeni olarak, Tanr\u0131\u2019dan dilenmedi\u011fim umudu, arkas\u0131nda saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kanl\u0131 kalemi bildi\u011fim be\u015ferden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey beklemiyorum. Vars\u0131n k\u00f6peklerin soyuna kar\u0131\u015fs\u0131n ad\u0131m, kimin umurunda olur nefesimin kuvveti kesildi\u011finde, bilincimin tahlili son buldu\u011funda, k\u0131yas\u0131 bitti\u011finde akl\u0131m\u0131n, yergi, yan\u0131lg\u0131, yan\u0131lsama, yaln\u0131zl\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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