Bir t\u00fcbekte izledim zalimlerin d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131. Hayat\u0131n e\u015f anlaml\u0131s\u0131 dedikleri bedenlerin m\u00fccevherlerine, o g\u00fcn ba\u015flad\u0131 hayranl\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Duvarlar\u0131 olmayan evlerde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim \u00f6\u011fleden sonralar\u0131n\u0131 toplay\u0131p saklard\u0131m sayfalar\u0131n aras\u0131nda. Topra\u011f\u0131n beline tutunup, yoku\u015flar\u0131 inen akarsular gibi s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm bir kad\u0131n\u0131n teninde. Kendi \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc a\u011f\u0131nda sallanan bir \u00f6r\u00fcmcek gibi salland\u0131m a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya sark\u0131t\u0131lan ipte. Kula\u011fa ho\u015f gelen bir ku\u015fku balosunda, elinden tuttum \u00e7irkinli\u011fin. Benim i\u00e7in bir \u0131sl\u0131k \u00e7alabilir misin? Hat\u0131rlanmas\u0131 imk\u00e2ns\u0131z san\u0131lan, buz tutan pencerelerin ard\u0131nda kalan gen\u00e7lik, yoklu\u011fumun yerine bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek koyabilir misin? \u0130\u015fte oldu. G\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131yla s\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f zehirli topraklar \u015fapkas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p att\u0131. Bir erkek ya da kad\u0131n, uykusuna dald\u0131 huzur zannetti\u011fi evlili\u011fin. Oysa ya\u015fam\u0131n kendisidir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k diye karalanan serbestlik. Sen s\u00f6yle tutsakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sultan\u0131, hangi derinli\u011fe kurdun sofran\u0131? S\u00fcp\u00fcr y\u00fcre\u011finden ke\u00e7esi eskimi\u015f saltanat\u0131n\u0131. \u00c7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak uzan yine bir ressam\u0131n tablosuna. \u015eiirden s\u00fcr\u00fclen soylular gibi dokun sen de sanat\u0131ma. \u00c7ocuk olmaktan utanan bir bilin\u00e7le, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ya da yukar\u0131 \u00e7ekilen su kovalar\u0131 var, d\u00fc\u015flerimde a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kan. Ve bir de baca\u011f\u0131 kesilen o yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 \u015fair \u00fcfl\u00fcyor duman\u0131, a\u011fa\u00e7 yapraklar\u0131na. Gelmedi hi\u00e7. Ne tufandan sonra ne de yaz budalas\u0131 gibi deh\u015fete d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcren bir \u015fiir. Kat kat giyilen elbiseler gibi, neyi i\u00e7imde saklayaca\u011f\u0131m, ba\u015fkalar\u0131na g\u00f6stermedi\u011fim ama herkesin bildi\u011fi rengi? Hangisinin sahibi olmak istersin diye sordular. Ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce, at\u0131lan yava\u015f ad\u0131mlar\u0131n m\u0131, yoksa bir yar\u0131\u015f at\u0131 gibi d\u00f6rtnala giden zaman\u0131n m\u0131? Gece g\u00fcvercini u\u00e7unca, bana ge\u00e7ti bu y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f hastal\u0131k. Dilimde bir s\u0131yr\u0131kla, benim dedim bu \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k. M\u00fczik aletleri bize yalan s\u00f6yleyebilseydi ya da \u00f6ten ku\u015flar\u0131n c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karabilseydi sapland\u0131\u011f\u0131 etten k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131, onlar da kat\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 bu k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck kervan\u0131na. Bu fikirle geldim buraya, bir bilgenin sakal\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131na saklan\u0131nca yapt\u0131m hayal\u00ee dans\u0131m\u0131. Hesap g\u00fcn\u00fc geldi. A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 ku\u015fkucular\u0131n \u00e7antas\u0131 ve i\u00e7inden ta\u015f ocaklar\u0131n\u0131n kara elmaslar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bir t\u00fcbekte izledim zalimlerin d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131. Hayat\u0131n e\u015f anlaml\u0131s\u0131 dedikleri bedenlerin m\u00fccevherlerine, o g\u00fcn ba\u015flad\u0131 hayranl\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Duvarlar\u0131 olmayan evlerde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim \u00f6\u011fleden sonralar\u0131n\u0131 toplay\u0131p saklard\u0131m sayfalar\u0131n aras\u0131nda. Topra\u011f\u0131n [\u2026]<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":0,"template":"","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"product_brand":[],"product_cat":[12291,12509],"product_tag":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-752773","1":"product","2":"type-product","3":"status-publish","5":"product_cat-edebiyat","6":"product_cat-siir","7":"pa_cilt-ciltsiz","8":"pa_tur-kitap","9":"pa_yayinevi-luna-yayinlari","10":"pa_yazar-ali-ozdemir","12":"first","13":"instock","14":"sale","15":"shipping-taxable","16":"purchasable","17":"product-type-simple"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product\/752773","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/product"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=752773"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"product_brand","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_brand?post=752773"},{"taxonomy":"product_cat","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_cat?post=752773"},{"taxonomy":"product_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_tag?post=752773"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}