Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ya da yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey, yahut bir bak\u0131ma \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 benim i\u00e7in belirli bir noktada ba\u015flad\u0131. Daha \u00f6nce \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ilk i\u015faretinden evvel kokular ve tatlar vard\u0131, sesler dokunu\u015flar \u015fekiller ve renkler vard\u0131 ama hi\u00e7biri birbirine girmi\u015f de\u011fildi, her \u015fey bir t\u00fcr d\u00f6ng\u00fc gibi sonsuz bir s\u00fcrecin kehaneti olan bir \u00e7ember gibi, sonsuz bir devaml\u0131l\u0131k gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 ve sonla s\u0131n\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7izgi gibi de\u011fildi. O \u00e7izgiden \u00f6nce bir \u00e7emberin i\u00e7indeydim. Her ne kadar ben hat\u0131rlamasamda ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n \u015fahit oldu\u011fu olaylar ya\u015fan\u0131yordu. Bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131k beni hasta etmi\u015fti, ben fark\u0131nda bile olmadan tek \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl olan bu hastal\u0131\u011fa yakalanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Kendimi bildim bileli hislerimi ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde g\u00f6stermeme, onlar\u0131 kimsenin g\u00f6remeyece\u011fi bir yerlere saklama, ba\u015fka bir ruh hali sergileme ihtiyac\u0131 hissettim hep. Ne kadar ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 oldum bu hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n belirtileri y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bilmiyorum. Duydu\u011fum sesle yava\u015f bir a\u015f\u0131nma sessiz ve geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olmayan bir gidi\u015f gibiydi. Ama hay\u0131r, bundan sonra bu hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n bana hi\u00e7bir etkisi olmayacak; bundan fazla daha ne olabilir ki? Beni sevdi\u011fim ilk terk etti\u011finde v\u00fccudunun kokusu en taze haliyle kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 akl\u0131mda, s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri dolduran ses titre\u015fimleri kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 orada, o aynan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltmesi g\u00f6zbebekleri dalg\u0131n ama parlak g\u00f6z bebekleri kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 akl\u0131mda. Ne ac\u0131d\u0131r ki ge\u00e7mek \u00fczere, hi\u00e7 istemesem de ge\u00e7mek \u00fczere. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ya da yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey, yahut bir bak\u0131ma \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 benim i\u00e7in belirli bir noktada ba\u015flad\u0131. Daha \u00f6nce \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ilk i\u015faretinden evvel kokular ve tatlar [\u2026]<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":0,"template":"","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"product_brand":[],"product_cat":[12777,12291],"product_tag":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-738277","1":"product","2":"type-product","3":"status-publish","5":"product_cat-deneme","6":"product_cat-edebiyat","7":"pa_cilt-ciltsiz","8":"pa_tur-kitap","9":"pa_yayinevi-imgenin-cocuklari","10":"pa_yazar-hakan-mazlum","12":"first","13":"instock","14":"sale","15":"shipping-taxable","16":"purchasable","17":"product-type-simple"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product\/738277","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/product"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=738277"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"product_brand","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_brand?post=738277"},{"taxonomy":"product_cat","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_cat?post=738277"},{"taxonomy":"product_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/roveyayinevi.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_tag?post=738277"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}