Birbirimizle sessiz sakin ge\u00e7inemememizin do\u011fal sonu\u00e7lar\u0131ndan bir di\u011feri ise benim konu\u015fma yetene\u011fimi kaybetmemdir. Ger\u00e7i her t\u00fcrl\u00fc ko\u015fulda muhtemelen iyi bir konu\u015fmac\u0131 olamayacakt\u0131m zaten ama hi\u00e7 de\u011filse do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn bir \u015fekilde ak\u0131c\u0131 bir dil h\u00e2kimiyeti edinebilirdim. Ne var ki sen \u00e7ok erken ya\u015flardan itibaren konu\u015fmam\u0131 yasaklad\u0131n: Bir elini havaya kald\u0131rarak beni \u201cTek bir itiraz istemiyorum!\u201d diyerek tehdit edi\u015fin, hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015flardan beri yakam\u0131 b\u0131rakm\u0131yor. Beni neredeyse hi\u00e7 d\u00f6vmedi\u011fin de do\u011frudur. Ancak ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f tarz\u0131n ve y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olu\u015fu, pantolon ask\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 alelacele \u00e7\u00f6zerek sandalyenin arkas\u0131na as\u0131\u015f\u0131n bunlar benim i\u00e7in dayak yemek kadar k\u00f6t\u00fcyd\u00fc. As\u0131lmak \u00fczere olan bir adam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn mesela. Onu asars\u0131n ve her \u015fey biter. Ama onu, as\u0131lmas\u0131 i\u00e7in yap\u0131lan b\u00fct\u00fcn haz\u0131rl\u0131klara \u015fahit olmaya zorlarsan ve tam dara\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne getirildi\u011finde infaz\u0131n\u0131n ertelendi\u011fini s\u00f6ylersen adam\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131n geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 ona zehir etmi\u015f olursun. Bazen \u00f6n\u00fcnde d\u00fcnya haritas\u0131n\u0131n serili oldu\u011funu ve senin de \u00fczerine \u00e7aprazlama uzanm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu hayal ediyorum. Ve sonras\u0131nda sadece senin bedeninin kaplamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya da uzanamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n alanlarda ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrebilecekmi\u015fim gibi geliyor. Benim g\u00f6z\u00fcmdeki iri c\u00fcsseni hesaba kat\u0131nca da bana yaln\u0131zca ufak tefek, pek de ho\u015f olmayan yerler kal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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